Purest of pain.

I guess I was weak, I couldn't even hide.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day

that it didn't hurt me when you walked away

but to tell you the truth I can't find my way

and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying

East Spring VS Srjc. the guys were awesome nice. Especially some guy in court. way handsome! I wished I could be as aggressive as them cus its fucking cool. But each time when I'm in the court, I got nerves breakdown lol. Scared to the maximum, keep wanting to pass the ball to others because I don't want to fall HAHA. What only. nehvermind, then dinner at ws! ^^ K, I'm gonna accompany Ruban for his dinner now.  

11.21pm. 

RIP grandma. I'll miss you, we all would. which means...

Fri sat sun = no work ,Monday = no school. like suck, I don't know how am I supposed to be prepared for match on Tuesday. and you guys thought that I would cry like a whimp right?? Sad to say, I didn't. In fact, I didn't even cry a single bit. Don't know why. Guess I was mentally prepared for this. aiya but it still suck to miss work and training. zzzzzzzzzzz I think I'd cry hell tomorrow. I think the only reason why I didn't cry because I was too tired. HAHA fucking lousy and no sense reason but yeah, tired = brain dead = cannot think of the past = no cry. But either way, I really wished you were hereforiknowyoullalwaysmakemefeelbetternomatterwhat