Let go.

I can summarized my week in two words.

LET GO.

Its been a rather sucky week I must say. Or rather, the worst week ever. Everything seems to be crashing down hard on me. First was School. Yeah read the 17th nov's post. I've got to let go of my stubbornness to get me far in my college. Next was my parents wanting to quit their job. I've got to let go of my wants, got to let go of my shopping craze. Then was my maomao. I've got to let go of memories and feelings. Later, was my grandmother (not the one that I'm staying with, I've got like 3 grandmas). One of them passed away 4 years ago.. it was miserable. and now, I've got to let go of the another grandma.

Visited her after work. I told myself not to cry, but i ended up crying as hell. I could totally cry a river. Tubes were everything. In and out of her throat. Whats worst is that there's not even a pinch of meat left in her body. ITS ALL BONES. FUCKING BONES. I dare not touched her because she looked so damn fragile. We were all waiting for the time, thats all. I stood there, crying, looking at her... feeling regretful.

WHY, WHY IS IT THAT WE HUMANS ARE SO FUCKING SELFISH. WHY WOULD WE ONLY LEARN TO CHERISH WHEN WE LOSE IT. WHY!! I cried so bad because I was guilty of this. To think that I used to ignore her when she came over to my place to find someone to talk her. To think that I used to find her annoying when she wanted to help. To think that I actually hope that she have no nothing with me...........

The doctor says she could only hold for at most 7 days. My grandpa is still unaware of this yet. I am so damn worried that my grandpa couldn't take this. I saw my mum cried. pains the hell out of me, so i cried more HAHA. So from today onwards, I PROMISE MYSELF TO TREAT EVERYONE NICE BEFORE ITS TOO LATE FOR THERE IS NO ROOM FOR REGRETS.

anyways! enough of the sad part, Dinner at Simei! While walking to eastpoint, i felt random and told my mum EVERYTHING LOL. Dinner was WAY AWESOME. WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING MAN. I told them about guys taking me as sub and they called them bastards. I told them about maomao and they told me to take my time to forget. I told them about ahbengs asking for my number and they said BOBIAN MY DAUGHTER TOO CUTE LIAO HAHAHAHAAHHA. K shutup. My dad damn joker.

Dad: Eh why your brother always lock the door when he use com ah
Me: How i know him
Dad: Must be watch porn. you got ask him if he got watch porn or not
Me: AIYA CONFIRM HAVE ONE PLS. C'mon la, he's a guy. let him watch la. Growing stage.
Dad: tsk, don't need la! At night got live one.
Mum: Cheebye.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH
FUCKING FUNNY HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAAHA. Then my mum told me about how she and my dad got together.. and yOU KNOW WHAT, MY MUM WAS THE ONE WHO PROPOSED TO MY DAD LEH. WLOU, THE FACE A BIT THICK SKIN CAN OR NOT OMGZZZZZZZZZZZZ. worst part is that she even two-timed my dad! OMG, OMG. I pity my dad please. My dad is truly a rare gem. Must get husband like my dad! MUST HAHA. but looking at how things are going for me now.. errrr.. haha like what am I saying. STILL GOT LONG WAY TO GOOOOOOO. HEE HEE

My mum got this 2years China contract. Some mac stuff. Contract about her going over China to set up the mac delivery. She asked if I were to allow her to go or not. OF COURSE I SAID NO. But then again, what are the chances of her going overseas? What are the chances of overseas BOSSES ASKING my mum to go over and coach them? She wanted to go at first, but after asking me and my bro for "permission".. she's starting to think twice. I'll miss my mum for sure. LIKE HELLO, ITS FOR FREAKING 2 YEARS. But its really a rare opportunity.

MY MUM IS THE COOLEST. SHE'S COOL TILL THE EXTENT THAT WHEN MAC BOSSES TALKED ABOUT MAC DELIVERY, THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO THEIR MUM IS MY MUM. so in other words, the RMs in EVERY outlet in singapore knows my mum. HOW FREAKING COOL IS THIS. reason being simple, because her mac delivery is power maximum. the best in singapore siol HAHA. so if she were to go to China... she can make history sia. Imagine 10 years down the road.. when you happen to dine at China's mac.. you'll see my mum's face. OMG COOL SHIT. I'm so proud of my mum. as in seriously proud. I am so gonna make her proud of me too!!!!!!!! :)

K home. and then......




Meimei: jiejie why your boyfriend never call already?
Me: AH. cause we no more already
Meimei: No more?
Me: aiya, break up
Meimei: HUHHHH WHYYYYYYYY
Me: No why.
Meimei: are you sad?
Me: errrrrrrrrrrr.
Meimei: Nevermind, i give you my xavier (her current "boyfriend")
Me: HAHA. then you got no bf already leh
Meimei: AIYA, can find another one mah. i dont like him already
Me: why?
Meimei: No why 

HAHAHA. MY MEIMEI LEARNS WELL HAHA

If you think she's good.. her brother is better! WAY BETTER. He can sing the entire song please LOL

I think god really loves to play prank on me seriously. He haven't got enough of yesterday. and today I've got this ahbeng pestering me for number. I SWEAR AH, I REALLY WANT TO WHACK HIM. he's ugly max. I know I'm not any better but AIYA, can't he understand NO MEANS NO? I don't like to make friends like this, thats me. and I got totally disgusted by this xiao didi. "Eh chiobu, I want one doublechocolate." "thanks sexy!". WTF? i've never use this face before but its seriously -.- . I want to -.- every sentence I typed. then I got this two uncle waving at me AGAIN. Next, a butch asked me for number. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I attract weird people and the people I like doesn't like me. HAW HAW. What a life.

Random, but..............ok no, shut up. go sleep. NIGHTS!^^ TMRW WILL BE A BETTER DAY YAYYYYY AND TO XIUWEI, LOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY. Go see her blog at http://candeza-myths.blogspot.com. Got special post for me! <33333333>

. Hold back .