I think I break record already. the cried most number of times in school record.. if my memory didn't fail me,i think its the fourth. Its the same old reason. Fair conduct grade, what else. LOL. I was so close to getting an award FOR MY EFFORT. An award that BELONGS to ME and ONLY ME. So close to getting my close to 1k. So close, so close. Whats worst is that I'm was so fucking close to make my mum super proud of me. /: why am I THIS CLOSE? Because of my fair conduct grade.
Its silly, really. To get a fair conduct grade JUST BECAUSE of my attire. Stubborn me don't wanna change and don't ever wish to change. Looking nice&neat on the outside MEANS NOTHING. Its just mere impressions yes? Impressions can say nothing but judgement. We, Singaporeans judge. Thats the way life is in Singapore. I KNOW. But why can't things change? I'm not tryna' be racist here, but its the same issue as the skin colour "war" in Singapore. Once we Singaporeans see/met ANY indians, the first thing that comes to our mind is eeee. This sounds mean but its the sad obvious truth... We ALL know its mean but why do we still see people doing it? why do still see the MAJORITY doing it? Chinese is the worst. We make up of the majority, we dislike malays and indians. and for that, I'm ashamed of being a chinese. What happen to "pledge ourselves as one united people"?. What happen to "regardless of race, language or religion"?. So for all these years, we've been chanting the same old thing for bulls and shits huh. these words never get into people don't they. then I say, forget about the pledge because it serves no meaning at all. People just pledge for the sake of it.
so let me question again, WHY CAN'T THINGS CHANGE?
It WILL take time and I AM WILLING to take risks and sacrifices to change people's mindset. EVEN IF IT TAKES ME FOREVER, I'll still put in my everything.
Appearance can say NOTHING about one's character and values. Appearance is a fucked up situation just like the skin colour problem in Singapore.
WHY CAN'T I DO THE THINGS THAT I LIKE?
They say there's a time for everything... yea there is but still, WHY CAN'T I DO THE THINGS THAT I LIKE? Its like I feel like learning how to dance, so I FREAKING PICK UP A DANCE COURSE AND DANCE NO? So I like to pierce, so why can't I freaking go pierce? Ah hush. Stop it with a "because you'll look like an ahlian with piercings". it all comes back to the same point, BECAUSE IMPRESSIONS FUCKING COUNTS.
If I can shut people up with my grades and attitude, I don't see why I must stop my actions. If I eligible for something, I don't see why these chances are taken away from me.
ITS REALLY UNFAIR AND GOD, YOU PEOPLE DON'T KNOW HOW IT BLOODY STINKS. TO HAVE ALL THE THINGS YOU DESERVED BEING TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU BECAUSE YOU DON'T LOOK NICE AND NEAT.
Either way. I AM STILL GONNA GET FUCKED AS BAD. Don't need to waste time talking to me, because I stand firm on my ground. take it or fucked it.
K, ENOUGH OF THAT. I CRIED BAD IN SCHOOL HAHAHAHHA. UH, CHEM + PHY TODAY ^^. Happening i like. then later was some queensland test or something, DAMN COOL. I like the questions but hate the reading part x.x then bball!!!!! ^^ 5km and I was the first!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Probably because there were only 5 of us running and that the rest of the 4 were walking and I'm like the one who ran. LOL. But still, I feel good. I wanted to train all my anger and frustration away but god hates the idea :( It rained... HEAVILY. So no running and getting my muscles cramp. BUT THERE'S TRAINING TOMORROW ^^
I'm gonna revise my chem and phy now. and I miss my boyboyboyboyboyboy. Like veh long never talk to him already :( I really do hope that work is going well for him! Please get plenty of rest and drink more water!!
SUSHI4YOU? :)
Inspired by Yuanyun. HAHA
^^V
Sok: jojo, they say if you smile under the sun right, your teeth will look brighter. so SMILE!!!!!
Be jealous, I have great mates :)
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