Another day,

Jabez just left. haha. THIS BROTHER OF MINE DROVE ME. HOW FREAKING COOL IS THAT?! Whats even cooler is that I'm the first person that he drove!!!!!!!! I know, awwwwwwwwwwww. Totally awesome. I freaked out when he walked to a car and then opened the door. I got double freaked out when he told me that he JUST got his license. You bet my brother love me the most!^^ there were no space for him to park at dte so he drove back to his place and we walked there. HAHA. Had mac, and we had fun :) I dared him to stand on the bus stop and sing "Silly Dreamer" with a damn high pitch voice. hahahahahahhaha. that was classic to the max. and his reward... A good kick in my ass. LOL. Jabez made me forget about the pain of missing my sayang. Love you big big big time Jabez!

Time check: 12.35am. And I'm doing opening tomorrow lol. See! Aizai notzzzzzz. . The feeling of not knowing anything sucks. Baby, where the hell are you? /: Tell me how on earth am I gonna sleep now huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

You make me wanna,

"You were the first and last thing on my mind,

You make me wanna surrender my soul"

^^ I love you best ,maooooooooooooooooooooooooooox. HAHA

Show me that good things are always worth the wait,

Soap in my eyes :( painpain how how? 

I'm feeling all better now :) Thank you sweethearts. And ofcourse the biggest thank you to my Garwie boy :* Sorry to my Mum. She got me my favourite yogurt and brought me to buy my sport bras, a bag, a shirt, my ankle support and a box of some black head removal thingy. I guess she realised how much she hurt me and she's trying to make it up to me. So I should make my mum feel this way even more hor?? HAHAHAHHAHAHA.KIDDING. I bet my mum feels x1000 more hurt than I do. Sorry mummm. I shouldn't have blamed you in the first place /: I brought myself to this and I'm gonna make it up to my College.. even if it takes the whole of next year. What brings me down would make me stronger. 

I'm full with injuries lol. Both of my thigh are having muscle aches, my ankle needs support, my back muscle is aching, scar on my nose because I fell and I've two blueblacks on my arms. powerpack. and one more thing, my leg colour tone is freaking _l_ LOL. Its so obvious. Black and white obvious.. so is my neck and chest. I NEED TO TANNNNNN. SENTOSA ANYONE?? PRETTY PLEASE MAKE IT SOON. :B

My sport bras are comfortable to the maximum. hahhaha. my mum still argue with me on the sizes lol. I wanted to get XS because M and S were too big for me. but she diedie keep insisting that bigger bras are better so that my boobs wouldn't be dangling. (HAHAH if you get what I mean). We were at the sport shop for 20 mins arguing over this. hahahahah damn funny please. she push her ** to show me her stupid theory. HAHA. which reminds me of my College toilet with Sally. HAHAHAHAHHAHHA so funnnnnnnny. so I told her that running would hurt my dearest Breast friend and then yadah till I finally convinced her to buy XS for me. we stayed in that shop for the full hour. HAHA i think my dad was bored to death.

I want to ball :( I want watch moovee. I want to meet my sweet faces. I don't wanna waste my saturday againnnnnnnnnnnnnn. GOOD NEWS! I'M WORKING ON SUNDAY!!! YES TO MOOLAH!!!! TIME TO SAVE FOR MY BRO'S IPHONE MAN. I want to get this amazing cute princess watch but it cost $200 LOL. ah! I need to get my spects too. money money come to mummy! Double  good news, I'm working with Khai tomorrow at 2pm!! YAY. My bestfriend better don't put aeroplane one me

:'(

I used to think that how one look isn't as important as one's character/ values /results / achievements. I was proven so wrong today. I was so crushed. I could totally cry you a river now.

So what if I scored 61. so what. I am still freaking not up to any one's standard. I can't participate in any College's event. My college life is fucking ruin by my own fucking hands. Yes yes, I may be laughing with getting a probation in school but you got freaking no idea how fucking crushed I was inside. 

I've disappointed so many people. I am so very sorry Mr.Hon and Ms Rivera. I am aware that they both have been trying so hard to get me out of the probation list. Trying all ways to talk to my year head and DM.  but yet, I still disappoint them with my stubbornness. If only I could fucking care less about how I look. If only I were uglier. If only ... :'( 

To add on the fact that my mum gave me so much shit when I got home. She said I was challenging my College, she said I deserve it. You guys don't know how much she hurt me by saying that. its not the time to say that mum. ha-ha. I'm crying like a whimp now. 

Thinking of the many chances that I would missed in my College really pains me a whole lot. I really hate myself. To the very maximum. I brought myself to this................    Never knew this could bring me down so easily. 

This is life. 

My life. 

I've got the most awesome boyfriend and friends and this. 

I can't get the best of both things can I. 

I want to ball real hard tomorrow. Burn me in and out. 

You may laugh/mock / lecture/ whatever me now. Seriously go ahead. go ahead with a " pin your hair to school la!" go ahead with a " haha you totally deserve it". C'mon, one shot take all. i know its fairly stupid to be in this state. its not about something that I can't freaking change. its just a matter of I want it or not. My year head gave me chance, and I took it for granted, thinking that by running/hiding away from her would make me safe. I can run, but I can't hide forever. Whatever. I'm a loser. 

BOOMZ BOOMZ DAY,

Boomz 1! I'm promoted! haha okay nothing much boomz-ing about

Boomz 2! I'm promoted with 61 rank points. hee hee

Boomz 3! My class got second overall. ^^V though I thought we would still stay as top. but nehhvermind, second sounds good enough.

Boomz 4! Its another 2 hours before meeting my Principal for my Fair conduct grade :( 

Boomz 5! Training in 4 hours' time!!!!!! Burn all the fatz and burn all the fucked up feeling I'm having now. 

Boomz 6! My CT is gonna meet my mum like soon. haha heck la,my mum probably lao lan with him. 

Boomz 7! ......... I miss Gary

BEE TEE DOUBLE-W, EILEEN IS A DAMN KAPO HAHA. 

It too shall pass,

HELLO PEOPLE. ITS 11.30AM NOW. TRAINING STARTS AT 4.30PM. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO NOWWWWW. lollllll. tell you that my current college life suck cock. Stealing all my beauty sleep away from me. but then again, i've been longing for this feeling for a very long time. HAHA. I'm so contradictory. You may whack me. heeeeee. I feel like sleeping on the table, but its unglam to the maximum. LOL wait. since when I care about how glam I look in school huh. My face is a total goner in my school if you guys don't know. baaaaaah. this is my college life. sleeping in a classroom filled with people. how koolsxz. okay. change of plans. gonna play taptap cum cartoonnetwork nowwwwwwwwwwwww. sweet! I think I'm gonna meet Jabez for dinner later! yay man, I miss my brotherrrrrr so much. 

I lie awake to miss you,

I'm watching PCK with my brother noahsxz. The feeling like sibei shiok only. its been ages since I've watched teevee. I've no life ever since school started. and boy do I miss lazing around, watching my all time fav fairly odd parents and Ben10!!!!!!! oh mannnnnn, I wanna waste my time away watching cartoons with sweethearts. -hint hint- HAHA.

Was playing ball with Sally, Small eye and Valerie in school. Play until my leg sibei aching siolx. I wonder how am I suppose to train tomorrow. Confirm run. So I chopchop matixxxxxxx :( I even had trouble boarding the bus. suck suck. Guess this is where I put my endurance level to the test. jyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjy. Joelyn10 aizai, no scared! 

HEEEEEEE. I was that bored in school. I was at the back of the classroom doing this shitx while sally is flirting with her guy classmates. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. I totally teased Small eye with her Jay-chou not very look alike. HAHAHAHAHAH. So fun please. See she beg me to stop is damn classic. HAHAHAHAHA. She's gonna get back to me twice as bad with my hot guy, CONFIRM ONE. see her pattern. But I aint no afraid of her. hot guy only what.

I'm gonna heal my thigh now. byesxz

Stick around and cross your heart,

You're my turning point baby. Never once like now I would so much love to see a face. A sweet face like yours. Now that I've fallen, I don't wanna ever let you go. All I fear now is hurting you because you're too dear for me to let you feel pain in any way. 

I'm in school. and I'm dead bored. Sally is making a hell in the classroom and I can't hear my music!! Irritating pig. its only 11.20 am.......................... and my OP prac is at 2.30pm. Man, my school life has been like this ever since my promos ended. But on a lighter note, thursday and friday are great days because we're gonna get back our results = NO PW/CHINESE LESSONS. ^^V I wanna meet my babyyyyyyyyyyy. but he's bz studying I guess. I shall not disturb and endure the pain of missing. I did something amazing yesterday!!!! Not gonna tell what because I want to keep people in suspense <: I was real happy when I did that okay. never have I did something this sweet before. hahahahah i shall stop here if not SOMEONE heart confirm chop chop itchy hor hor hor. I'll tell you guys when the time is right. muahahahah, so fun so fun!

I want to train real hard for bball. I is want to have alot of stamina. But yesterday training suck cock because I was the FIRST one who did push-up cuz I missed a shot, I was the FIRST one to run 400M because I free-throw in 0 when we were given 5, I was running the SLOWEST again. My mood was totally ruined. damn bad. I feel so suck. but i'm not gonna let this bring me down! I'll train twice as hard and be SR star player!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Don't burst my bubble. I can do it one hor! 

SALLY CLASS SIBEI NOISYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Suck,

I don't know whats with me, but i'm feeling rather sucky now /: I just had to be a freaking kan chiong queen. Now all thanks to the kan chiong-ness, my mum's laptop crashed. Its not the first time. Guess its like the 4th. Fishhead,  my mum is gonna give me hell when she reached home. Argh. I wanna meet my fav but he's not replying/calling i dont know what is he doing lol. Probably studyinggggg, and as much as I want to meet him, i guess I should not disturb. ass head, i'm gna do something now. if not i'll go crazy, like real crazy. argh! BYESXZ. 

-Edit-

I wanna L-O-L so bad. Yesterday was totally awesome cus I met my sweet face and today was a total bad day. Great, I just ruin my sunday. fyi, it got nothing to do with you baby. So chill. I just returned from running and I still feel like shit. I'm going out soon. I'm meeting no one. My heart cannot take. tomorrow is another long day. but training sounds awesome. I can train real hard and get all this shit off. 

World's changing,

Funny how simple words and actions so ultimate could lose its meaning. Why do one even bother to cough out iloveyou when one don't at all? why do one even kiss so many millionx guys?? Eh sorry la, to me hor, saaying that three words is a almost mission impossible because no matter how hard I tried, I can't say that three words to my bf and kissing is a mega big fuck okay. HAHA. I kiss when I feel in love, thats that. I don't kiss for random guys. okay fine,you're hot, people want to kiss you but freak man. you're hot but you're so freaking monstrous inside. whats with girls nowadays huh. why can't they love themselves for who they really are. why can't they be true and pure. why am I even talking about this LOL. k. i miss some asshole. that idiot whole day never talk2me :(

Best feeling ever!

Hihi people. I'm here without peek tures :( I know how boring it is without pictures but I figure that its way too long since I've post a proper post. heeeeeeeeee. you people got miss me not!!! :D

Nike Human Race today. Small eye's mum accidentally threw her tag away :( So she didn't join us. like freaking sad please. Met Sally at 5.30am. I wasn't anywhere near tired I swear. Prolly because I totally KO on my bed yesterday after talking to my fav boy :B I was so dead after 4km. My virgin run on high way was way awesome lehhhhh! Don't jealous okay. HAHA. I had Sally running next to me all the way. I guess if its isn't for me, she would have complete the 10km in an hour and 10 mins? hee hee. my fat friend like sweet only. hahahahahahahhaah.

oh!! we completed the damn run in 1 hour 29 mins and 50 seconds when we're given 1 hour and 30 mins! HAHA. Lucky or what. I tell you, when we were at the last 250 metres mark, Sally told me that we had only a minute left before 90 mins hits. I swear I ran DAMN FAST. I dare say, the fastest speed that I've ever ran!!! the thought of going through so much in the past hour was too much for me to put it to waste man! so I chionggggggggggggggggggggggggg. like mad. hahahah despite my short legs ofcourse. HAHA. Anyhow, we still made it! yay us! and double yay for SRJC WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO. We got the most number of participants who completed 10km in 90 mins. (HEE HEE. ME & SALLY GOT CONTRIBUTE HOR HAHA). like awesome. tell you whats even more awesome is that the college is 5k richer and my college is so gonna be featured in some Nike stuff. HAW HAW. In your face!! SR OWNS! \m/

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh the other time when I was running with my dad, I saw this guy's fbt which is freaking wet. I think its damn disgusting. and you know what, my fbt was a wet shit man. hahahahah I was dripping for like 30 mins siolsxz. my whole shirt is awesomely wet. its like as though I came out of the shower without drying myself. We took peekture too <: Shall post it up here once Sally sent it to me :) You shall see me in my unglam run moment. HAHA.

I tagged along with Sally's class. man is their class fun. hahahah and speaking of fun. SALLY BULLY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( SHE ASSHOLE, GO ASK HER GUY CLASSMATES IF MY IN FRONT FLAT OR NOT. WLOU, LIKE PS TO THE MAXIMUM LEH HELLO. I DON'T KNOW THEM THAT WELL AND THEY FREAKING STARED. HAHAHAHAHHA WTF. HAHAHAHHAHA. someone said there's something here. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. see , i is not bad one hor. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.k shutup. HAHA

ahhhhhhh. i'm so tired already. Training on friday, running today. gonna take my nice afternoon napppy/ bye! :)

When Nisa and Joelyn are bored while waiting for sally,

.................. 

yes babies. we were this bored. hahahaha you see pat sibei act cute pls!!!!! HAHA. Tmrw's school. totally sucked ballsxz. School bores me toooooooo much :( I miss my garwwie alreadyyyyyyy. its been 6 days since I've met him. ahhh, school bz he bz with his studies. where's my life!

THIS IS SO TRUE

JIAQI IS FREAKING PRETTY AND BEAUTIFUL. SHE'S HOT AND SEXY! OH MY GODDD! REN JIAN JI PING! (fyi, people who know me would know that this isn't posted by me. like hello what's the meaning of ren jian ji ping????? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA)

BBBBB,

B is for boredom. B is for Bug-ugly Jiaqi. B is for Big fat Jiaqi. B is for Big face joelyn. whatever about jiaqi are all the opposite. while everything about joelyn is so true. that was by jiaqi. so  ya she was convincing herself again. living in self-denial. *shake head* B is for big face joelyn who have a huge big face and huge forehead. B IS FOR BEAUTY PAGEANT AND HE JUST APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME!! *vomit* joelyn is a big fat face forehead. she is so showing her forehead now, clipping all her hair up! ohhhh, and her face, this is the description:

An ant takes 5 secs to crawl from normal person's chin to his forehead.

An ant takes 10 mins to crawl from joelyn's chin to forehead for several reasons! number 1,her forehead is too high. number 2, the ant has to crawl over mountains and valleys in order to reach.

WHILE FOR JIAQI'S FACE, THE ANTS TAKE FOREVER SINCE HER FACE IS SO SMOOTH AND HER COMPLEXION IS SO WOWW~ THAT'S WHY ANTS CAN'T GRIB ONTO JIAQI'S FACE.

ANDDDDDD, JOELYN HAS A LARGER MASS COMPARE TO JIAQI. THUS THERE IS A HIGHER GRAVITATIONAL FORCE WHEN ANTSSSS(WITH SMALL SMALL MASS) CRAWL ON JOELYN!:D

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Jiaqi truly lives up to her name people. she was damn into writing the shits above. she even pushed me away just to dream in her own fantasy of her being prettier than me la. HAHA. my friend just contradict herself, like mega big time hahahahah 

An ant takes 5 secs to crawl from normal person's chin to his forehead.

........................

WHILE FOR JIAQI'S FACE, THE ANTS TAKE FOREVER SINCE HER FACE IS SO SMOOTH AND HER COMPLEXION IS SO WOWW~ THAT'S WHY ANTS CAN'T GRIB ONTO JIAQI'S FACE.

She herself said that an ant takes 5 secs to crawl up a NORMAL being's face. so tell me what's with her "the ants take forever". put in simpler words, she's trying to say that she's not a human being at all. Prolly a BIG, FAT , UGLY pig. awwwwwwwww. Pity my friend. HAHA

and as I was saying from above ... B is for Baby, I miss youuuuuu. HEHE OKAY TIME FOR MY PW LESSONS NOW. MONDAY SUBMISSION OF MY WR. YAY PLS. OP NEARING, MT As NEARING. 3 DEC NEARING. LIKE HYPER NICE I LIKE SIOL

Something new,

I wanna learn how to skate like a damn pro! not that I don't know how to but man, seeing how others skate like as if they're flying itch my leg so much!!!!!! Heck if I were to fall millionx times on my fat butt, but I really wanna skateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :(

The only voice I hear in my head,

Maximum laughter today. my my, Yuan yun totally made my tummy cramp like siao. We laughed all the way mansxz. Trust me, its really ALL THE WAY. we had so much to say, so much to laugh. Head over to her place to chill :) :) OH LIKE BEE TEE DOUBLE-U, I DID A FAIRLY GOOD DEED TODAY ^^. Damn proud of myself. Litter bugs should DIE! I can't say what I did because I promised yuanyun not to. damn la, but heck. I did something nice today ^^V. I wanna stay over at yuanyun's place! any takers???? :D I totally spent my week allowance lol. I got myself a pair of shoe (YAY) and a shirt for only 6 bucks. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. So I left 6 bucks for this entire week. Guess its time to bring my ben10 lunch box to school! YAY TO BEN10!!!! <: 

Pictures spam! <: beanies like ownageeeee. hahahah but i looked so hairless with beanie on hahahahahahaha

Dinner at her place. then fruits later. We got bored......... and then..... this.

If case you guys can't view : http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?comments&v=153394938298 ^^

HAHAHAHHAHAH WE TOTALLY OWN THIS SIA. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAH FUNNY RIGHT HAHAHAH. All thanks to yuanyun and her forever disgusting putting oranges in her mouth habit and my video craze. HEE. BEST!!

She survived. but I didnt. I was still laughing after 5 mins LOL. you see, i want to cry alrdy LOL

Anw. my friends are totally bitches. why???? show you why!

HAHAHAHAHHAHA YES GARY MAO. HAHAHAHAHHAH NAH FOR YOU BABY. FOR YOU AND FROM MY FRIENDS.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

If anyone could make my day so ultimate, you can, yuanyun :)

luv this picture. like damn sweet hor!! HEEE.

Tonight would never end,

I want to cut my hairsxz :( It makes me look like a clown. I don't like thick hair cus its warm to the maximum. I've finally bought my very long time no use shampoo. Hee. Its about time for me to get my own stuff mansxz. Truth is, I've never once bought any of my personal stuff, other than my clothes and shoes. haha, undies & bras were all bought by my aunt and grandma. hahahahah so i've got plenty of pokemon, powerpuff girls, princesses undies. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.  cute hor! I am so gonna label my shampoo and shower bottles. if not I'll probably not see them next week. my family damn powerpack one hor. Buy shampoo one week no more already. Dad just gave me 50 for my entire week, including today, but I bet that i'm gonna spent it all later. hahahahahh. Doubt I would have enough to last for a week but heck la. I want to buy my shoesxz. Like damn nice only leh. I'm totally dead later when my grandma finds that I've gotten myself another pair of shoe. hahahahah. my shoe all standard kind. you know those school shoe kind?? Me don't wear heels. its either SHOES or SLIPPERS. the double s. ohkeh, i'm gonna meet yuanyun soonnnnnnn. gonna spam her laptop with videos and pictures!!!! ME LOVE.  

" Show me that the good things that are worth the wait

tell me that I'm not alone, tell me that this feeling is not a mistake.

baby when you looked at me, tell me what do you see?

are these the eyes of someone that you could love? 

You're everything that brought me here, everything seems to clear

baby you're the one that I've been dreaming of.

Its you and one no else :) 

You're like a dream come true,

HI PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been totally enjoying myself. Late night talks, msn like siao, meeting up my old mates, playing ball, meeting my favouite sweet face.... boy if only this could last forever. guess not. My hair was a goner but hairband do wonders. HAHA. I hairband-ed in school and DM was so please with mua. I'm so proud of myself for having my long lost ballsxz to show my ultra hairless big face *sobs* 

this week was hell for me. My mood was ruined by shits *points to my posts*. but! I met my sweet face yesterday night which makes me so darn happy. but hor, he bully me :( He say I got negative A, fat tommy, my big face and many more which you don't wanna know hahahahaha. you see hor, he very mean to me :( but i love him very very much. like no matter what. OH! which reminds me, HI HI BABY YOU STILL OWE ME MY BLOWING YOUR EAR FOR 5 MINS HOR. 

anyway, I was bored before my VCW. so I took pictures with ET. HAHAHAHHA ET. HAHAHA

This is retarded because I didn't know that such effects exist in my macbook until yesterday. hheeeeee

STILL GOT NEGATIVE A OR NOT. BIG ONE OKAY.

I met Manpang, Yuanyun, Sihui, Pohling and Sally for frisbee today! Wanted to play ball but boo2public holiday cus Coral no open :( I sucked at frisbee because its either too high, too left, too right or too low :B We died after 10 mins. hahahahahah played for an hour only. freaking weak to maximum but heck for we had tons of fun yes babies?? :D Fish&Co. for brunch! Fish was awesome, Magazine was awesome, the company was awesome :) I got myself a new pencil box, a cute ring and A BEN 10 RULER!!!! OMG I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE RULER OKAY. ITS FREAKING BEN 10!!! V^^V. Ben 10 reminds me of my Ben10 watches :( I broke them two, I miss the light light :( -pokes- buy for me for Christmas lehxxxxxxxxx. 

We settled down at mac and talked like forever. hahhahah I was tired when I was home. but its worth it all. Know what, I miss my fat face boy already. A bit fast and unbelievable but i really do miss him. that idiot is probably tired from today..... which means I'm gonna have to entertain myself for tonight. AH! NARUTO!!!! <:   BAISXZ