tell me reasons why I should do anything without you,

they say... hope keeps one going. I hoped. and my kind of hoping only makes matter worst. I hoped for the better but things got fucked up in the end. I hoped that you would still remember me when you leave but my name don't sound familiar to you now. I hoped that you wouldn't be like what the other boys were but it turns out you're worst than them. Hope keeps one going... going for greater things in life. But one must know what to hope for. I was hoping that you'd be different........ guess that was too much. High hopes can crush one in an instant.

 Sad to say... I got crushed, again. 

 I'm having this sudden  urge to get inked /: I want to feel pain pretty please.   

bah! Math and Physics today! I was worried for my Math. and know what, I got the shock of my life when I read the first Question. I. Don't. Know. How. To. Do. I FREAKED OUT. I'm like nb die already la!!! :( But who knows, I solved it in the end and did the other questions with freaking much time to spare. Freaking how much? Freaking 90 mins to spare when we're given 3 hours. One more thing! NO APGP!!!! I on fire already sia! I studied APGP like the whole of yesterday and none of these shits came out. Waste my brain cells. not that I have much to spare. HEHE Physics was HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. Don't need to say manszx. I know how to do, but right or wrong its another thing you know :B 

Chem's tomorrow! I think I'd be meeting baby tomorrow toooooo! YAY! Spells too much fun! I think its time for my well deserved break <: Sigh, then again..... this year is coming to an end. I'm turning old. I can totally feel it okay! omg scary! my bones are cracking maximum times! :( Sad part 2, I would have to make new friends again :( I don't want! I still love my 1S04. CHOY!!!! My class would be promoted as a whole! :):):):) Because I'm the Class rep yo \M/. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.  

Sidetrack, melt me with Vanilla twilight. This song is way hell awesomely nice. Play4me can? <:

screwedbiguptimeneverfallstupidasshole,

OF SOMEONE SO DEAR, 

I WISHED YOU WERE NEVER HERE. 

You'll be my number one.

Eyes are heavy as fuck. I'm tired. The sun is burning. C'mon, its September already! Where's the hardcore rains which never fails to keep me in bed. Kick school works aside, I'll be working this friday!!!!!!!! <: Bet I'm happy. May I work with fun people :( Its a total bore without Ayman, Jayn, Khai, Lyana and Eugenia. WHY YOU PEOPLE HAVE TO LEAVE TT.TT . 

I want to get my hands on so many babies! First thing first, my brother's Iphone. I miss adding bling to my face. Snake bites like cute but basketball would kill me. k, nap > study > sleep. bai!

 Just one time. 

When I was flying high you tried to clip my wings,

Despite sleeping at 1am last night, I was hyper when I woke up at 5.30am. Aizai maximum. Chinese today... and for the ever first time I finished my papers with extra time to spare! <: Happy can or not. I used to chiong my chinese like mad because I couldn't finish. But cheh cheh, practice makes prefect. HAHA. anyway.......there's this tutor who is shit annoying! :( Kept looking at my compo! I HATE PEOPLE TO READ WHAT I WRITE OHKEH ESPECIALLY CHINESE. HAHA, cus most of the time my essay is like a secondary school work. No chimology, No big wu-hah phrases, No nothing. andddd. after the papers, I dropped my Ezlink card. The guy sitting next to me picked it up for me, like awwwwwwwww. NOT. because my Ezlink card dropped with my picture face-up!!! He saw and he wanted to laugh soooooooo badly!!!!!! :( :( :( :( :( My ezlink card picture got so jialut mehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. 

HAHAHHA OKAY LA ABIT. TSK BUT DONT HAVE TO LAUGH ONE RIGHT. :(

Whitesand foodcourt for lunch! I think I hang out too much with Sally already!!!! I can totally read her mind, and she can totally read mine. *GASP. I've never imagined myself being this close with Sally! Our minds are wayyyyyy alike. like I can predict what she want to say ohkeh. and I can totally guess what she want to eat when she give me the look and what she want to do each time she did something stupid. I know what makes her happy and what makes her angry. HAHA. Sally is a true angel.. and she can be your worst nightmare. hahah trust me on that, you wouldn't want to risk her being all mad and cranky over you. She can go on forever criticizing and being mean to you IN EVERY WAY, FROM HEAD TO TOE, INSIDE OUT. this is what I call the power of the Sally Sin. HAHAHAH DOUBLE ASS as in (S)es. HAHAHAHAHAH. OHHHHHH! XIUWEI!!!!! Sally LOVES to join us for our shopping trip! heheheh you know whats in store right baby <: Someone want to buy short short kan sexy dress and high till cannot high heels lehhhh, HAHA

Yogurt after lunch! <: was never a fan of yogurt but the yogurt at whitesand was good! <: When I say its good, its really good. Yuuuuuummmmmie! I'm gonna bring my mum there again! Mum loves it. and something stupid happened... *stares at sally*

Me: Why you eat the melted yogurt!

Sally: I like

Me: eat the yogurt la!

Sally: Don't want. *pause*/ *stares at me* /*thinking of what to say* 

*when she's about to open her mouth*

Me: Cause you don't want to be as fat as me right

Sally: HAHAHAHAHAH HOW YOU KNOW.

Told you I can read her mind! ohyah!! today on our way to school..... I've forgotten what we were talking about.. we both paused and then blurbed out the same thing at the same time!!! LOL. cool or what.

Sally calls everyone fat. So you'll be a weird ass if you're not being called fat by her. The only reason why she calls people fat is to convince herself that she's prettier. I know, I know. Poor friend I have. thats why she needs me you see. OH! there's one thing thats way different between us. Our taste. OMG .. HER DEFINITION OF HOT IS ...... cmi. better than pohling's but still CMI. HAHAHAHHAHHAHAH

and on our way homeeee..... some secondary school boys really adore JC girls huh! HAHA

School boy: *whisper to his friend*Eh Serangoon JC

Sally: *turns and stare at them*

School boy: OH MY GOD.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. SEE! SALLY ULTIMATE WARRIOR!!!!!! <:

Econs paper tomorrow! My hand's gonna break from all the hardcore writing tomorrow mansxz. I saw my hot guy today! HEHE. and i think he's still hot. NEYEH NEYEH POO POO. kkkkk, time for my nap! Nap time is the best time among all of the time. HAHA. I luv naps. Luv naps with my grandma. because she always pat'd me to sleep <:

To hold you so close. Almost believing that you're true. so far, we are so close.

I've sent a postcard to you cause I wished you were here,

Been so long since I've changed the songs in my playlist! Music maximum stalker stalked and got new nice songs! HEHE. Enjoy the songs ohkeh <:

Reckon how some words can just ruin my mood? tell you what, you suck mega big time! Go sucked up to other girls. Don't bother telling me those stuff for I will never believe. You bunch of guys are the same. Even if you say you're different from *(A)*, you'll some how be the same as him. Its simple. cause you both are friends. Friends hang out, Friends LEARN from each other, friends influence another. So no point telling me how different you are, cause i see no different. and please, don't come step one hero say will quit hanging out with them because of me. C'MONNNNN. don't take me as a 3 years old already. I mean, but I like the way I'm mean. It makes me stronger in every way <:

Dinner at dte. Played catching with my adorable cuzzzs :) Like cute. MAN. NIKE'S HUMAN RACE IS LIKE ON THE 24th AND I HAVENT STARTED TRAINING. Win liao lor. tsk GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HHEHEHEHEHE. OH YAH, chinese's tomorrow. 3 hours in the hall can call SOS. Freezing cold, but stubborn dont want bring jacket for my hot guy will strip. AHAHAHAHAH, KIDDINGGGG.

I won't make you leave,

Honeys.. Silver rated's updated <:

Ever since I've joined basketball.. my 2.4 improved.. made an awesome bunch of friends.. had my first ever team mates.. had my first ever Jersey.. Basketball made me feel awesome I swear <: but.... its been ages since I've danced :( I missed dance. I miss the practices.. I miss looking retarded each time I learned a new step. I miss how the crazy me danced when my favourite music was played. I missed so much about dance ... and the most I missed about dance was when my parents came for my performance. with their ever so proud look on their face while I was on the stage, dancing. its totally priceless I tell you. Sigh. I AM SO GONNA SIGN UP FOR A DANCE COURSE/LESSON AT ANY CC MAN. I WANT TO DANCE REAL MAD NOW. :B STUDIO WU SOUNDS GOOD BUT HOR, VEH FAR. tskkkk CLUBBING SOUNDS WAY AWESOME BUT... *pokes* you sweethearts want to accompany me not?? <:

I'm done with my revisions! YAY. Math was a killer. lol and me luv physics thanks to MythBuster. STUPID SHOW!!! MADE ME SO CRAZY OVER PHYSICS. tskkkkkk. 4hours of Math can die leh hello. I did RJ paper... which was AHHHH, and more AHHH. to think Math was a no kick for me. not now, never now. 

Shocked attack!!!!

I'm suppose to rant how tired I was from all the hardcore studying since noon. but some stuff had to spoil the moment. Don't you worry, its a good stuff.. I think. I totally freaked out when I saw what I saw. as in more freaked out than freaked out. I have never ever ever ever ever x100000000 imagine this to happen to anyone! I went cranky and crazy when I saw what I saw. OMFG, its really scary!!!! AHHHHH *breathes in, breathes out* .. woh, its seriously too much for me to take.

k, i bet you guys are giving me the " wlou joelyn siao ah. what thing so big sia " face.
BUT ITS REALLY DAMN LA SIA. NEVER LIE.

Its big.. something big like MY 19 YEAR OLD FRIEND JUST GOT MARRIED??????????

BIG NOT!! WLOUZ. the fact that she's 19 can chill but MY FRIEND. MY FRIEND!!!! AHHHHHHHHH. MY FRIEND!! LOL. Sorry but OMG MY FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I used to hang out with her when we were so young. We used to have this lublub thingy between us. OMGGGGGGGGGGG.

I only can study when the sun goes down. like shit. So yeah, studying in the afternoon is a total waste of time. Nothing goes in, and everything comes out.
What do it mean when two waves are congruent?
Two waves with same length and angle.
Guess only Sally and Pohling would understand this.

Promos.... promos... I wanted it to come so badly and yet I wished it would never come. So much to study..... mannn, ( and you guys expect a emo emo sad sad phrase) I will hang on!!! NEVER GIVE UP HEHE. BAI!!! <:

Dropping so quickly,

My mum got me a macbook pro after a "Mummy, I want a new laptop" <: My mum is truly and ultimately awesome. She add on a " I spent my bonus on you two because you both are my kids " awwwwwww. like I can totally cry at that instant. :* 

Yesterday was a sinful day because I didn't study. Tsk, I hate study leave because I will never study. I hate holidays cause I miss school. I'm gonna work hardcore during the holidays to buy my brother a Iphone. Its time to buy something real and good for my brother! 

boy I suck using this. bai! 

And only to realise...

I lost a friend.

Mine to blame. I wanted you to leave me so bad and now you did. Ohwell. Life. Move on!

Its yesterday once more,

Nb! Must play hard to get then you will learn how to cherish is it?tsk I should seriously stop complaining so much because I know you guys can't take. and would most probably think that I'm the biggest dimwit would contradict the most. Hmm, I think that my tatts are freaking-ish ugly and needs touch up like asap. A fourth one sounds good yes? <: teehee, which means time to save up!!!! Gonna pick a better one this time round. No more being cheap for tatts. Now I shall study to cure my pain. hahahahhahaha. okay I was kidding. Aint no pain in me. I'm happy! like a happy happy gal walking on the streets! bai!

Its a dangerous life affair,

I don't know why am I here for but I felt random. Lets see now.. today,today,today,today... hmmm .. I've never felt so free and stress-free when I attended school today lol. it does not even feel like I'm in school attending lessons. Math was a bore. Math bores me too much nowadays, tsk. Chem,Phy&Econs. Nothing much happened though. I'm bored /: oh! some asshole girl *stares at sally* was being a mega big fat selfish pig!!! She said that her friend said Nisa's cute guy is extremely cute while I got disgusting taste as her friend thinks that my hot guy is ugly!!!!!! The worst part is not about knowing the fact that there's an addition member to "I don't think my hot guy is hot/handsome" fanclub.. but was not knowing who the hell is her friend!! I hate guessing games cus I could never ever guessed anything right. I think Sally enjoys torturing me like this. Boy she is sick to the maximum. HAHAHHAHA okay la fine, I shall not be so mean to her. To tell you the truth, I don't think that my hot guy is THAT hot as compared to the time when I first saw him... but there's just this something which makes me wanna look at him till my eyes pop out. You know.. eyecandy? Eyecandy is defined as enjoying the presence of that person. It just makes me feel like home. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH shit no! not home. as in, it makes me feel like " awwwwwww" and then my face would go red. HAHA. what else could you expect from a shy girl other than having her face turned red? Wooo. now my post is full of words and I bet none of you guys have survived till here. HAHA <: so to sum up, STOP SPREADING TO THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I LIKE MY HOT GUY. For the last time, I don't and will never. I will never like my eyecandy because I ONLY enjoyed his presence. I don't have the "I want to be with you" feeling. Though at times he made my heart go on a roller coaster ride.... but it does not mean that I have any feelings for him. Besides.. he's too much for me to take. hehe. OMG. Now I used up my entire post talking about hot guy. Well done joelyn, well done.

tell me what does it mean when I've reasons for every actions and
that reasons all linked back to you?

OHKEH. I'm having my GP promos tomorrow! Pray government and poverty come out.
Ti-gong-poh-bi.

What start with the biggest and fattest F?

Yea the greatest, the biggest and fattest F is you
- ER!!!!!! No fun just popping the

word out. Make my post dirty only. UH. where was I? Ah yes you mother

-er!!!!!!!!. Hate you forever , as in seriously forever. I know that I've said about not mentioning about you ever again but boy you boil me too much. Whats with you SERIOUSLY. I'll ever be so happy if you don't even bother talking to me la please. and trust me I'll be overjoyed if you take me as if I'm some god damn alien. Or best still, take me as someone whom never exist. Come talk to me on msn then immediately offline. HA. Coward shit. why why, afraid that I just MIGHT hit the bull's eye huh. Pity you,

-er. Having this sad life of hidding forever. Well you better hide! Don't let me see you! Don't wanna risk my mood being ruin.

. EAT MY SHIT! ^^B

Stupid things happened when I'm dead bored. tsk! anyway.

Just someone who never fails to make me smile like no other <:

I know you want me to want you and I want to,

See what I meant by cmi tone colour?

Naruto marathon till 3am last night was awesome! its been so long i've stayed up this late. the feelings like shiok only. Bloghopped again. and I saw something which made conclude that we all suck. one can never get enough of anything. We all suck TOO much. Fancy complaining till forever. I sucked as much. Can't quit complaining about school. Can't quit complaining about my lovelife. MANNNNN. I WANT GO FOR A HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

like whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat,

SICK, BUT I THINK GUYS WHO GOT PROBATION ARE WAY CUTE!! SEE THE LITTLE DEVICE ON THEIR ANKLE LIKE CUTE SIA. SAW PLENTY TODAY. THEIR HAIR CUT IS THE BEST. SCHOOL BOY HAIR CUT OWNS SHAIT <3! HAHAHAH BUT TOO BAD, ONCE A GANGSTER FOREVER A GANGSTER. WELL THEN AGAIN, ITS MY FATE. I'M ALWAYS TOGETHER WITH A GANGSTER. HAW HAW.

This is the end of the moment,

ahhhhh, miss the good times spent with them four. Harry potter all the way over at yuanyun's place, eating good food! HAHA. babies please promise me more of such okay! :*

[Yesterday]
Accompanied Nisa for her hair cut! I think I'm damn good at eavesdropping. there were this group of malay guys in front of us in Bus 39. Though I can speak no shit of malayu... but trust me I understood every single thing that comes out of their mouth! HAHA they were checking this malay girl out. HAHAHAH like classic!

Sally was being a bastard on our way to the salon.
Shall show you how mean she is ohkeh!
Me: Wah, I don't watch horror show one sia.
Sally: Go watch with hot guy la! then can hug him!
Me: HAHA hannorh. Like shiok only. wwah!! cannot! later I hit him.
Sally: best!!! should go watch horror show with him!
Me: why sia
Sally: then you can hit his jaw in!
WLOU!!!!!!!!!!! BASTARD RIGHT!!! AND HOR ITS NOT THE FIRST TIME ALRDY LOR. KEEP SAYING MY HOT GUY'S JAW. NB SHE JEALOUS SHE DON'T HAVE SEXY JAW LIKE MY HOT GUY. JEALOUS PIG!!!!!!!! CURSE YOUR HUSBAND GOT PIMPLES!!!! HAHA V^^V

Speaking of hot guy.... my dearest Nisa & sally totally made me ps!We were having our morning chats with bball mates.. then hot guy came... Nisa hugged me(so that I have no chance of running off) while Sally waved at him!!!!!!! :( Can't believe that my friends are so mean to me. I think my hot guy thinks I'm crazy. ANYHOW DON'T CARE. HEHE

[Today]
Worked today! <: Was a last minute thing but guess its time for me to chill. I was with Yong wei and Jenny. Well, only for 2 hours... then later came an attachment beanie. Man! You guys should have seen my SIAN-DIAO face. Its always like this! Whenever I'm working.. I got all attachment beanies which make work ball-ring! tskkkkkkkkkkkk. The moment I saw her, I was even more sianxxxxxxxxxxxxx. Cus she's from China!!!!!! HAHA. BUT!!!!! Little did I know she's one hell of a nice lady. hehe. okay fine I'll stop being racist.

Lets see... Kai ren came and went. Saw millionsxz of SRJCians. They gave me the stare. like tskkkkkkkkk. Never see your school people work before meh! I totally feel like going up to them and say " YEAH ITS ME. STOP STARING ALREADY ". Want to dig out their eyes only. Bjorn came down too <: Saw all except mister heartattack guy! yayyyyyyy.

Random, but I missed dancing :( Its been ages since I've danced and I can really feel that my bones are damn stiff. I can't even touch my toes now!!!! Reckon that I can kiss my knees... and now... I'm not even close to kissing them! :((((((((((( My colour tone is like cmi. Damn... now with bball... I have absolutely no time for dance! :( makes me feel like clubbing. HAHA.

Oh man... Fat girl's hungry! fat girl will love you to death if you bring food for me NOW. I swear, like love you to death. ha, its been far way too long since someone did something sweet for me. I've forgotten what's the feelings were like. Ohwell. Its life. Guess I'll need to be patient with god. anyways! I caught Aladin today! Boy is DisneyChannel awesome! I love childhood shows . *HINT HINT. HAHA
Now I shall leave you guys with a wonderful song!! ENJOY! <:

Your breath is like a song I can't forget,

It feels like tonight. (L)

When my heart goes knock knock,

Omg. My body clock is totally screwed. I was sososososososo tired in school despite sleeping at 10pm yesterday! Its 6.22pm now and I'm hella awake. Monday was horrible. I was gloomy all the way. HAHA. totally KO on my bed when I got home. Hated myself the next morning cus I studied no shit but chilled after meeting my dearest Sally which made me so dang happy. I know I know, weird is written all over my face. Stop staring.

Promos are nearing... say its only 8 days away? <: You bet I can't wait! Omgomgomgomg Imagine all the fun thats in store! omgomgomgomgomg. hehe sorry la. Its been ages since I've had fun. As in the wild, crazy pure fun.. with no worries about studies. OMG!!!!!!!!! CAN'T WAIT LA SIA. IMAGINE ALL THE STUPID THINGS THAT I'M GONNA DO. THERE'S NO TELLING WHAT I'M GONNA DO. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Excited only! But the best part of all is that I'm gonna spent it all with my favourite humans!!!! Right xiuwei?? Right Bball mates?? Right Ruban?? <:

And again, i'm like a daily reader of you two. You haven't been updating but your girl had. The old me would most probably be jumping with joy right now but this is the new me. New me who moved on. New me when you don't matter. When will you ever learn. WHEN EVER BOY, WHEN?! Maybe its her fault for doing stuff that you don't like.. but she apologized and PROMISED that she won't do it again yes? Well I'm in no position to judge her but I think she meant what she said. Because I totally feel her. On the other hand, I am SO IN POSITION to fucking judge you cus you're a loser who cheated on my youth and precious feelings! Argh. I don't know why am I talking about this but it kills me reading her post ABOUT YOU. I feel like whacking her up from her fantasy and tell her OUR story. Pains me too much to see how many girls you've hurted. I know I should wash my hands off this matter but ARGH YOU SUCKER. No matter, I believe in Karma. What goes around, comes around. Its probably not your turn YET. I bet its gonna hit you twice as bad! assssssssssssshole. Handsome also no use, your everything stinks like shit. How could one turned so heartless? You aren't the guy I knew. Its such a tortue to see such a nice guy turning to this. No, I don't think that you're heartless in the very start. You were nice, sweet and everything that every girl wished for. Your every actions could make one fall so hard cus you meant what you did. I missed the red spects and your school boy hair cut. The new you? its kick ass good bye, I don't even know you anymore.

Don't wanna be here again,

I'm tired. Like tired to the maximum! :( Reckon sleeping for 5 hours last night. *yawns* New shoe is hurting me AGAIN. I hate wearing laced-shoes cus they bite!! Thanks to my brand new shoe, I'm having a 10 cents size blister on my left ankle. Wait, did I just say brand new? But the conditions of it sucked. HAHA its black ALREADY. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Tomboy cannot be blamed what. This semester is like kool. I'm having school for the whole of this week, and only Tuesday for next week cus Monday's hari raya! <: GP paper on Wednesday... and my study leave on Thursday and Friday! When school starts on the following monday.. its the start of my promos! FAST RIGHT!!! Wait! there's more! After my promos, i think we're given like 3 days break.. you bet I'm gonna go crazy! Ton three nights without sleep!!! drink all I want!!!! have all the fun in the world! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. okok, chill chill... after which, We're gonna chiong for our Project and A levels MT. oh! I don't know if its good or bad news.. but my holidays officially starts on 5 dec. LOL. Anyhow, good thing that I won't grow any fatter during the holidays cus I'll be busy studying. yay me! <: Can I tell you how much I missed you? *hugs* its been ages since I've hugged someone... boy do miss it.

Out of breathe, I'm done with waiting,

Food fair an hour ago! Suck, I think I've lost my feminine sense. Hardly walk for 3 hours and my legs can't take anymore! Reckon that I could walk 5 full solid hours non stop! Powerpack right?? I know lor. tsssssssssssssssk. the food wasn't as good :( In fact, the food was like normal lor. Had some thailand poh-pia. sorry but omfgknnccbnb digusting!!!!!!!!!!! The vege that they used was rotten la damnit. OMGGGGGGGG. Then me being me, NOT WANTING TO WASTE FOOD, I ate the whole damn thing only to realise that its rotten after finishing. Eat until so happy. nbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb. cheat my $3.30 T.T Oh, saw this cute guy there. hehe, he smiled at me till cannot see his eyes. Koaiiiiiiiiiiii <: Gave me food like fwee. He treated me ice-cream too! Oh man you guys gotta try the ice-cream! Hazelnut was way awesome than compared to Vanilla and Chocolate. Damn sweet!! haha okay la probably because of the fact that some cute guy treated me that. hehe. And no sweethearts, I didn't give my number to him cus its stupid. Please man, i think if I were to give him my number.. he would probably "like" me and then asked me to be his girlfriend and then you'll see me whinning about guys being guys again. I know, I know.. what makes me think that he's like the other guys. Well I don't know but its an obvious fact that I can meet no good and nice guys in my life. Stop telling me that I've missed a chance cus I know I have not missed any (:

okokokokokok. oh! hahahaha I've forgot to mention that I went to the food fair with my grandma, aunt, neighbour and my cousin! Kool group right. Uh, got myself a pair of LACE-shoe like finally!!!!!!! Yay me Principle don't have to nag at me for my shoe anymore! <:

So yah, was bored. so............ I killed another song again. HEHE

More to come tomorrow! (: BAI!

If only you have forever to spare,

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Someone's being a mega loser. K not someone. That person whom I've been stalking for the past year. I pity his girlfriend or shall I say.. his soon-to-be-ex-girlfriend. though I know no idea how's the girl like... I feel her. Yea, everything.. I feel her everything. Stupid bastard never once learn his lessons huh. Fancy leaving a girl hanging AGAIN. Don't you guys think such being should be awfully punished?? I feel like tagging him with many labels! man.... really hope that there would be no more girls like me for him to fool. His sweet talks are one mega powerpack words I swear. Can make one melt instantaneously. Damn it. I wished I was born a little braver. then I could scream hell at him and make him embarrassed! Heck to his friends who's gonna hate me.. because all of them ARE THE SAME. In fact all of HIS KIND are the same. But then again.. guess god has his own ways of dealing with such people. I'll just have to sit back, relax and enjoy :) can't wait!!!!!

k so bball in the morning. It was a turn off cus the CC was packed with people! :( so we walked down and played ball at 418. No net makes no sound. Which makes shooting boring. LOL the sun was burning, so I KO on my bed once we reached home. kkkkkkk, gonna study now! (: bai.

Somewhere I belong,

Makes me think... do you even love your girlfriend in the first place. If yes, then I'll ask whats that to fear. If no, then I'll say bravo dimwit, beware of Karma. If you say its trust.. then I say whats left of this relationship is nothing but fear. If you say its jealousy... then I say time to change your temper and learn to trust and understand. You see.. it all comes back to trust. I find it pointless to continue on with a relationship without trust. If you ask me whats the biggest secret that is being shared among people with ever lasting relationship... Its trust. No other. Yea and I've gotten/seen no trust in my previous relationships. haha which explains why it never lasted. Or should I say none of it were to be true. fyi, I'm not talking about the mofo in my previous post. this is just so happen to be the very day thing that's been bothering me.. wait no, i mean the everyday thing thats been bothering my friends which is bothering me. Speaking of everyday. my 24/7 is no where to be found (AGAIN). Good heaven, stop playing hide-and-seek with me already.

Knock you down,

Never thought I would love like this. When I looked at you, my mind goes on a trip. When you came in, you knocked me in my head. Never thought I would fall harder like this.
Sometimes love comes around, it may knocked you down.
But I've picked myself up.
Bring it on baby, I can handle this. Once, twice, thrice.. anytime.. I'm ready for it <:
We were never meant to be. I've moved too quick. May the memories burnt into ashes. and let the wind blow the ashes away. For you'll be the moving ass-shes, and I'm the ever moving wind.

--

HA. Why are you even upset with me? like what fuck did I do. Say, don't tell me you're obsessed with me? *shy face* aw. Tell you what sweetheart, I think its best if you sucked the cock up to other DESERVING girls ohkeh? I don't think I deserved such sweet little comments. Because I'd most probably get annoyed and scream hell at you. Or perhaps I just might make you hate me. awwwwwwwwwwww. Go back to your vivian girl fucker. ^^

Victory is within the mouth,

Studied with the twin towers today :> I is don't like. Cus it feels like 1O1. Makes me look awfully weird. :B I made pohpohling wait for say... 30 mins?? HEHE. NOT BECAUSE OF ME BEING ME, i mean the vain me, for taking ages to tie my hair... that idiot didn't even call me la! Like how am I suppose to know she's waiting for me when my phone is god damn in silent mode. and you know, me being me... ever so deaf when I'm dead studying my stuff. so ya lor, heng that I got stuck on some question. If not.. I would continue on studying till forever. Rushed down and met her 20mins later. Ai zai queen is limbu! HAHA.

BK is our forever spot. Talked to her like old days man. told her stuff and saw stuff. HAHAHHAHAAHHA. Both of us were crazily laughing away. boy do I so miss the bimbotic times.

So..... we studied... and then bus 89 MJ guy > Hot guy > damn cute & hot person. OMG I SWEAR I CAN KILL THEM BOTH IDIOTS OKAY. Especially the damn cute & hot person part. what makes one think that saying another's cute makes another one's eyecandy? Please lor pohpohling. Please lor sally sin jia qi. please LOR. *roll eyes* HAHA. yea, my image is gone case already. "Hi baby!:) You're cute :-*" TOTALLY GONE.

Bus 5 home!!!! AHHHH, MISS BUS 5 HOME TRIPS WITH 14-MINUS-PH :(
PH + POH = 14. GET IT??? HAHAHAHAHHAHAA. OKAY I'LL SHUT UP

Ohhh, luv my 3/4 pants above. <:

Anyway, whats with private!!! Don't private your blog leh. Not fun already. I want to stalk to maximum and compare leh. see he treat who sweeter. Guai, unlock your blog okay?

Someone's making my heart itched.

I can't keep on living this way,

boy do I miss blogger!!!! I miss entering my site and listening to my blog musiccccccccccc. But the template is still as sucky as ever :(

While waiting for Sally this morning... I saw this guy running. Reminds me of SR's trial run.Reminds of the first 6km I ran. And then....... the rubber band. which makes my heart itch. .....very very very badly. lol. Tell me this is not what I think it is. Man, this is too damn scary. Hate being random at times. It always get the best out of me. Apparently, I told all my heartfeltz to nobody <: Fyi, Nisa&Sally so happen to be nobody. Cus nobody is perfect. and Nobody can make me happier than anybody HEEEEEEE (:

Sometimes I really hate to know EVERYTHING. yea EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I just so happen to log into my friendster account. Saw your ever familiar name appearing on some girl's account name. So happen to be at your site. and your tagboard gave me a 3 second heart attack. The heart attack was too much for me that I actually took my phone and called Sally. Whined to Sally for less than 3 mins, and then I chilled. I've improved. Guess this is what they called the numb feelings huh. Dearest American boy, you are the best. I am really starting to think what is it that made me fall so hard for you. You're way awesome than awesome. In fact the best man I've ever seen. You really know your way to girls huh. Is it too late to take back my words? No, not the I hate you forever one. Its the don't be an american boy, be my boy's one. You suck big time. Go be an american, china, indian, whatever ass boy for all I care. I doubt that that relationship would or could ever last. Pity you for not knowing what's trust, pity you for not knowing what's the joy of giving and not recieving, pity you for not knowing what's happiness without money. Just don't try another soul, PLEASE. Enough said, you're really not changing. it was me all along. I'm sorry for wasting your time. I'm sorry to text you. I'm sorry to stare at you while you're just standing next to me. I'm sorry for giving the awkward moment when we saw each other at downtown. I'm sorry for being me. If it wasn't for me being me, nothing of this sort would happen. life. man its tough.

anyway, here's a little chill! (:

oh yeah baby! who's class owns now huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \m/

anyone wants to date me to study tomorrow??????????