why can't you see, you belong with me

I've got so much to say.






But I guess things are better to be kept this way :)


I'm getting lazier, sorry my bad. I doubt I would have the time either. But either way, my hits is decreasing. I very much care less now. >:B Besides... I've got no nothing to much to post. I hardly have any pictures with me now and my life is still the same old I can't get over you but i'm still happy cus i've got school and bball thingy y'know?


haha but don't you worry. I'd be back when I've got the time.. which is most probably after my midyears. cus I bet I would have million of stuff to blog and complain about my project work, camp and bball. hahahahah. but yea I keep my words oh-keh, no more complains learn to appreciate life.


Indeed. Learn to appreciate. My grandma would be going over to Jurong to stay with my cousins next year. I'm not gonna hide my emotions here please cus its an obvious fact that I'm sad. My grandma had never ever left me for all of my 17 years /: The thought of her leaving pains me a whole damn lot...........but guess its time for me to really grow huh. Ohwellllllllllllllllllllllll. on a brighter note, without my cousins.. I'd have more quiet time studying and preparing for my A's next year and thats if I got promoted la. haha



Try harder Joelyn. Push all the way! As time moves on, you will too.


Saturday -> GP test. SIAN.
Oh! I got back my econs test and I passed! YAY!!!!!! :D Chem test on thursday and I'm gonna get back my phy test soon, like on monday. dont fail me okay.

Fuxk addicition and I can't stop

Mistakes makes me stronger.
you're my mistake. you make me stronger.


Sorry but I really sucked at cheering people up. I may appear happy-go-lucky but trust me, I'm not. I can be high in a minute and the very next, you'll see my famous wtf emo shxt face :) Bah. I wished I was better in words. I wished I could make you guys happy. Don't be sad anymore sweethearts. You know I'll be here :)


Naps makes wonders. I just had a 20 min nap and I'm wide awake nowwwww. Best! I can stay up longer to do my math and pw. Speaking of Project work.. ahhhh, one word. Die. This is my 5th draft and its no where near getting an A. More like a E or even a S. Pathetic much.


Midyears' are like what, 2 weeks away. Time sure flies huh! I'm having my 2.4 run tomolo. hahahahahah most probably I would be sleeping during lunch. I is damn tired after running okay.

My mum is seriously the best cuz she never fails to make my day a happening one.
To who may concern: Please excuse my daughter Joelyn Tan Yiying for not attending school on the 25th April 2009. She cannot attend because she needed to go with me to pray her grandmother.
Regards Joyce Ang.
I'm not being mean here but its really funny la wlou!! HAHA. I swear I was laughing damn hardcore when she showed me that. Needed to go with me to pray her grandmother. hahhahah. cramp,cramp,cramp!!

Before I end this post.. I've got something thats interesting to share :) its a MUST to click oh-keh. I assure you you'd be shocked. like damn damn shocked.



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Susan Boyle. She's 47. They laughed because they didnt believe. So yea to those mofo out there who thinks they're always right with their assumptions, first impressions doesn't always count.



Alright! enough of this. gotta run! :) Please cheer up okay! Don't be sad cuz either way, you still have to move onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPPS:I'M WORKING ON LABOUR DAY! MUAHAHAHAHA YES I IS SIBEI HAPPY!!!! :)))) CANT WAIT YOU KNOW :D:D:D

Pain, feel, gain

I ran. I push. I'd make you regret

I should stop posting about my emo shxt feelings here cuz its pretty much a bore. I was reading my previous post and I've been repeating too much LOL. anyhoooow, I'm tired. I just came back from my run. I feel like going to shit and then sleep till 3. I've been receiving quite a number of unknown calls. I'm not being a dickhead but I don't pick up random unknown numbers cuz I hate guessing games and two, I've learnt my lessons from picking up unknown calls.

Nuffnang showed me cool stuff. Go goggle and type sr and hot guys, you'll see my blog link right at the topppp. ah great, I just increased my goggle search results for my blog site. anyways, ads are here! Be a sweetheart okay! :)

I'm gonna stick to my words from today onwards. I must and I will. ps: u're trying too hard.

What hurts the most was being so close

Haha :( I'm in such a confused state now. I don't know whether should I be laughing or crying away. Didn't you realise that you've been using words a little too care less? Not careless, care less. I doubt you would never know that I've been worrying alot for you. I guess its useless anyway. You're happy with your life now. All the best okay. ps/ you are changing. double ps/ I'm not the only one. triple ps/ I miss the old you, real bad.


The more friends we made, the more we would drift,
Ceteris Paribus.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH


Its been rather long since you guys heard me sing right?? HAHA
NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. MAKE YOU DEAF FOR TWO MINS :)






and yes ms pohpohling, I is sibei miss you alot. Meet me on thursday at kovan leh!! steady abit can?? HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE


I vehhh lao lan meh?? :( LOL I should stop using stupid phrases. bye! gotta do chemchemchemchem. :) ohhh ONE MORE THING IM WORKING ON LABOUR DAY!!! YAY YAY YAY ME IS DAMN HAPPY:)

Pictures of you

When will I ever learn! I'm being sucha a big dimwit. Fancy repeating the same mistake. The worst part isn't making the mistake. But me not learning.


And they say life is all about struggling. so doubt me not, my life is damn like a life. I've been in deep shxt for almost 3 years now. I know I've been real mean and bad in the past, but I've got seriously enough. I used to think that it was all god's will for me to go through this, but come to think of it... childish much? I brought myself to this and I'll fight my way out of it. I tell you, I'd be in deep depression right now if it isn't for Sally and Nisa.


I've been complaining too much. I should learn how to appreciate my life more and stop whining like some assholex.


I'm so tired. HAHA you see.what I meant by repeating -.- but im really tired. hehe. Had SR Olympics and I helped out in the yogurt stall! sales was good! Aunty was real friendly and I did my own yogurt. hehex. The rest of the bballers came later and thank god that I didn't see me ec today. like embarrassing only. Cheer was cool and Pegasus got third! YAY :) Ohoh, Sally and Nisa won a medal for bball :( and I don't haveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. They got in second while my house got first. IMAGINE IF I'VE PLAYED FOR MY HOUSE. I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN MY FIRST GOLD MEDAL.. OMGGGGG.haha. Nehhhvermind! there's always a next time. The weather was damn jialut.


should I work on labour day? /: I miss cafeeee. but I'd feel guilty zz. Annoying. anyways, I'll be giving my math lecture a miss tomorrow. :) and :(. :) = becus I wouldn't have see my ec. :( = because ...... becus lecture is impt. haha wtf. ya la and contradictions is spelt all over me. Don't want see ec but keep whining. You may go wtf at me now. I totally deserve that look you're giving me. I can never understand myself . this is why girls are ever so hard to understand.


Alright I'm gonna have a nap now before bringing my cousins down to playyyyy. Please meet me mister mia guy. cus its the only way for me to know if its just me missing you or me still liking u.

Where blue birds fly

I've got serious hongkong feet. The whole room smells of my naked feet. Yea, my hongkong feet almost had yuanyun killed. haha. wanna try??


I'll show you cool shit now.

Adam Lambert!

WOoo. look at his smile. so ever so typical adam's smile. charming only.




Cheaters = Major turn off no matter how cute you are okay. Anyways, ever experience about getting something to happen so much but when it does, you get totally annoyed by it?? Human contradicts too much. I contradict too much. I don't feel like going to school already la walau! all thanks to smthsmthsmth. tsk, irritating okay. I don't like the feeling of being watched at/noticed at. Damn stalker. Cus when I do something stupid, you'd be watching and prolly be laughing away. I is sibei hate this kind of stuff. and then I'll be hearing people saying " aiya then don't care and play your shit la ". Eh like hello, easier said than done. You try doing something which you look totally retarded at with some pair of eyes stuck on you. I'd rather go crazy over youuuuu than for you to doing this shit. I don't care if we don't even know each other for our entire life. I'm happy with what I have, with all those stupid stuff cus it makes me grow. Dimwit. Prolly you'd be teasing me right now. like what I said, who cares! I like the way I am behaving now in school okay. Glancing, teasing each other, day dreaming. Don't be spoiler okay.

Met Ruban and Xiuwei today. And I miss my pony tail. night!


As usual, I miss *

Seize the day

Even the slightest thing could make me go high over the moon. I'm smiling like an idiot now. Someone please save me from my fantasy. but the thought of letting go pains me more than anything else. Its never easy to let go of something that once meant too much. but anyhowww, I'm happy for now! haha. weeeeee. tonight is the best night everrrrrrrrrr :) This is so gonna keep me alive and awake for the next two hours. hehehehehehehehhehehehee.

If the moon fell down tonight,

If you didn't notice.. the morning sky was beaut-ti-fulllll. The stars were shining freaking brightly. and the colour of the sky is gorgeous. just,like,when I first met you.


My life's been pretty much the same. School > home > study > tests > bball > home. I had my physics test today and omg I hate people who freaking cheats okay! No integrity. Bball for awhile and gossips all over with my bball mates. hahahahha. its like a always thang. Bball = gossip abt girls + our cute/hot guys. hhahahahah freaking funny.


Napfa is in a week time and I am so not prepared la. zzzzz well, only for my run but my SBJ is like :( :( :( :( :( Nehhhhmind, I'll give it all I got. Ohhh, i got back most of my test results. and like what only. C for Econs, Chinese and Chem. A for Math. and U for GP! HAHAHHA. like expected la my gp. fyi, U grade is less than 39 over a hundred. hahahah omgxxx. I lost 6 marks for chem cuz I can't punch in the number 10 in my calculator. Told you no one can beat me at being this dumb. I is the brest.


I like school. cuz it keeps me away from you.
I just can't get you off my mind and why would I even try
even if I close my eyes, I'd dream about you all the time
Cus I would always want you to be by my side.
Please stay here for tonight.
Guess I should stop dreaming.
Even if the moon fell down tonight, you still wouldn't be here.

Done waiting,

SR Olympics on friday! woooooooooo.

hi babies, read silver rated okay :)

I'll call you candyyyyyyyyy

It's 7.45pm and I'm not suppose to be here.

Bah. Yesterday was awesome nehz. hahahah my vocab is damn limited. I kept repeating awesome to describe my day. but it was really awesome i swear. hahahahhahaa ok ,enough of my shzt.


Met my baby and steph at ws for dinner :) I bumped into Yee Xien on my way there. well expected, steph was late. hahahah so my baby and I talked like as though we haven't see each other for 370483740837 years. School's seems pretty fine for her I guess :) gald that she's happy with school. Kfc for dinner all thanks to my baby who have this sudden weird crave for this sinful meal. Dinner was like what, an hour long. hahahahahhahahaah. walked down to dte like a clown cus' I'm the brest! right steph?? HAHA.


Head down to Ruban's place along with Ivan, tim and some other guy with small eyes. hahahahahahah. we chilled and chilled, did nothing but chilling and making a hell load of noise with baby's laughter. damn power. hahah. baby, ruban and ivan cabbed home while steph and I went to dte to study!

Went over to cafe to stud-deeeeeeeee. omgx, I miss cafe vehhhh much! :(

Walked down to steph's place at around 2. I swear I was freaking scared to the core okay. I am so very afraid of the dark. even the slightest noise could make me pee on my pants. I didn't even allow steph to bathe la! HAHA so we played with her webcam and omgggg, we had ourselves totally entertained. hahahahahha video was freaking funny! Rest assured, I'd upload the vid when steph sends it over to me :)

Like classic only. Webcammed with ivan toooooo :) HAHA Ivan kept being a bastard but we had fun. hhahahahahahahahahhaa

I wanted to take a cab home but I ended up walking home lol. I tripped four times while walking home. hehez. drop dead when I reached home at 8.

look how fast time runs. its like the 19th april now. I've been in school for almost 2 months. haha and been trying to move on for almost a year. I'm gonna turn 17 soon. turning 17 = old. hahahahahaah yea, totally turned off. ohhhhhh, ivan's like going to ns soon. like cool onlyyyyy. k time to study! bye!:)

Best day ever!

I'm gonna meet my baby, clone koh sweetheart and black man soon :)

Take me to your candy shop,

I smell like shit. I think the person who sat beside me on bus 358 damn poor thing. Need to smell me through out the bus ride. hahahahahahha


Chem > PE > Math Lecture > Physics > bball.
PE was a killer. but I must say if its isn't for my team mates I wouldn't have completed the circuit within 29 mins. Climbing stairs to 30 sit ups to two rounds the track to running outside the school to doing 20 crocodile jumps to running to the bus stop to doing 20 dips. I started to die after climbing the stairs hahahha I know damn weak. shhhhhhhh.


Physics was blah. Had retest and then experiment. Oh I forgot how to spell "experiment" while I was doing my paper. lol, yeah doubt me why am I in a JC. errrr experiment was blah blah. I cannot figure how to set up the stuff and I ended up looking at others. spa die.


Bball was awesome! haha. cuz we finally did something that is real. as in like no more playing no rules games or just anyhow throw. My legs are breaking liaox. andddd I'm going for my school's rock festival! WOO. best part is that my CT is gonna perform. Sr like cool only. GP test tomorrow and yea it'd be a miracle if I pass.


Like what I said before.
Doubt me with every word I've typed here :) bye!

You got me where you want me

My "fullstop" button is screwed so this post would be a endless no full stop post haha have fun reading okay anyways I've finished my 3rd PI draft for my Project Work like finally okay my god my teacher keeps rejecting my idea zzzzzzzzzz nehhhhvermind time is still on my side hehezx


Eh I think i'm gonna be stuck at friendster hahahahahahah yea I know typical me ever so contradicting huh one min im so (fill in the blank) and the next I'm so ( fill in the blank ) hahah this is so my life I'm like getting rather used to it already no more moaning about this and that no more nagging and complaining over stuff guess the best way out is to go with the flow huh


My mum freaking smacked my butt while I was having my nap zzz she yelled at me for being so tired lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll weird mum I have huh but blame her not cuz she's having some math test on monday = stress and annoyed mum hahahah like cool only which 40 year old mum still take O lvl exam papers huh? hhahahha oh yea my mum is the and theeee coolest



and I'm getting hungry each time when the clock strikes 10.50
time to grow fat byeeeee :)

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"live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong live strong "

WALAN EH SIBEI JIALUT!!!

PLEASE BE SMART OK. DONT BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU SEE HERE CUZ I'M SUPPOSE TO POISON YOUR MIND. SO YEA, SO PLEASE DOUBT ME FOR EVERY WORD THAT I'VE SAID TYVM. OMFG LA JOELYN TAN YI YING WHEN WILL YOU EVER LEARN???

I wanna spend the night with you,

Hi. If you're wondering how am I nowwwwwww... I'm fine. just that I grew a bit darker and that my panda eyes are popping out very soon and my legs are aching damn hardcore.


and you bet my school life is damn happening for the past few days. hahahahhahha :B:B:B
Anyways. I had PE today and I totalllllllly sucked balls for my Standing Board Jump. damn embarrassing pleaseeeeeeeeee :( I was the only one who fell and that didn't pass my SBJ lorxxxxxx. hahahah. but on a lighter note, I've totally improved for my 2.4. from 18 mins to 14 mins lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I IS DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF LOR :V


I'm gonna run for my school 30 x 200. hhahahha yeah 30 manxxxx. Its for some house thingy la. at least IF we lose wont so paiseh. hahahahah 30 lehz. BUT CHOOOOY PEGASUS WONT LOSEEEEEE. PEGASUS ALL THE WAYYYYYY \m/ hahahahhaa. ohohohoho and I participated in some cheer leading thing for my house. hahahahahah yeah I'm not kidding. and nooo, your eyes are not playing a trick on you. I can't believe that I'm actually participating in school activities. but I am. hahahahah


Bball today. was cool. I grew darker. and then Nisa can't " to the right to the right" each time when we saw jing guooooooooo. tsk. okay, time for my Project work now! till then! :) takecare!

I see you running

Why is it that everyone think by running would solve everything??
Running away from home, thinking that it would somehow magically solve everything and that parents would not bring up the matter in the future
Running away from school, thinking that it'd be forgotten the next day and that tomorrow will be a better day.
Running away from YOU, thinking that you'd be gone sooner or later. Cuz time heals....................................................... my ass.


I've been running from this adam shit for god damn long and I can't stand myself any longer.
Knowing that you'd never ever ever ever ever ever talk to me again, I'm still doing no shit about it. I've been repeating this "move on and get a life joelyn" shit for too long till its lost it's meaning. I need to do something about it and no, my something aint gonna be getting myself a boyfriend cus one, I wouldn't want to hurt anyone anymore two, I don't exactly need one now, three aint that desperate and four, no one wants me. hahhahahahahaha. I want to get you off my mind, seriously. But my mind doesn't allow me to. Each time when I've got nothing to do or absolutely nothing to think about, you'd be popping out out of no where. each time before I sleep, I'd think of everything you said and done. fuxking sick i know hahahahahhahha. I've tried thinking of my girls but I don't know how or why you'd get into the picture. help??

Gone case

WHAT THE FUXK SHIT IS WRONG WITH YOU????

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

its not like I've never tried.,

Yesterday was another fabulous night I had with my xiuwei, black man and weiyuan! :) Time's been running too fast. Though I spent my entire night with them three, it seems like its only been 10 mins. Don't worry, I'm not gonna bore you guys with words. But before you all ka-chiong people go stroll all the way down my post to see my lovely pictures. READ~!


Met Xiuwei at Teadot at Tampines 1. hahahah wtf tampines 1 sounds so gay. bet there's gonna be a tampines 2/3/4/5. why tampines 1. at least tampines marttie or tampines 6. -.- anyways, tampines 1 was totally packed. you see all small black heads trying to squeeze their way thru'. Tampines 1 was freezing. and there's like topshop there. O.O COOL HORX.


We bus'd down to dte. We were happily talking away till some uncle board the bus. I'm not trying to be or sound mean here but he smells of shit. Yes, im serious. Don't laugh. As in really shit. it was really bad. bad to the very extent that the whole bus could smell him and that everyone on the bus was covering their nose with tissue EXCLUDING ME AND XIUWEI. Yeah, despite sitting RIGHT BESIDE ME, I DIDN'T COVER MY NOSE OK. neither did xiuwei. WE BREATHE OUR WAY THRU'. Through out the bus journey, everyone kept turning back and looking at us. lolllllll. while most of them were complaining how smelly the bus is. like fuckkkkkkk, we know its smelly but who to blame?? Its not like the old uncle is to be blamed yes??? God knows that he's wearing a diaper cus' he got some illness or smth ?? the bus journey was totally awesome. know why?? Cuz' xiuwei and I had the whole of the back bus to ourselves and the old uncle. its like there's a zone line. everyone who boards the bus and wanted to sit infront of us, would stand there for 4 seconds, stare stare, and then walked back to the front. like cool only ah.


Sigh, people. Ever so selfish.


Mac'd againxxxx. hahahah and then met black man and weiyuan! :) AND XIUWEI BASTARD ME!!!!! I saw a guy from my school so I just randomly said " that guy from my school" . that idiot went : OH THAT GUY FROM YOUR SCHOOL HUH. Superdog and then to Explore Kids again!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. you bet we had loads of fun muahahahahah. and you'll see xiuwei doing stunts. I took millions of them but most of the pictures were too revealing.. though xiuwei got nothing much to see but yeaaaaa. hahahahahaha :B

After which, we cabbed down to Ahpachee's place and they drink while xiuwei and I went homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

=Z

You left me feeling high and dry
With nothing but a question why